A Martyr's Plea

Days have grown so dark,

Hatred running from one to the other,

When they hear His name they tremble and curse.

I have a Love and it is not a crime,

And yet…. They say it is.

I do not understand their ways, why do they hate me?

Why do I have trouble fitting with them?

I struggle to find the cause,

And now I see…..

It is because I have a love affair with the Creator,

It is because I have surrendered to His ways,

Nothing means more to me than Him.

Everything in life is His.

I have been beaten and spat upon,

I can hear their words roar against me, Oh!

 Nothing but hatred! What is the crime?

Why did you murder my family?

All I did was love…

Deep scars cover my body, my tears mixed with blood,

All I ever told you was that the Creator loves you too…

All I did was tell you the truth of Hope,

And yet now my hands are bound.

I told you an escape from guilt and shame,

And I stand here with skin torn from my body…

All I ever wanted, was you to see Life,

And I have trouble breathing because of broken bones.

I offer you Living Bread and Living Water,

And yet I am shamefully abused,

Is hatred all you understand?

Is this all you see?

I do not hate you and my thoughts are consumed with your fate,

Do you realize that He has called you in ways of peace?

Do you know that His tears for you are every day?

Do you know that there is a way out?

Everlasting…peace.

I understand….I can only give you a message.

It is still up to you to believe…

I see you now have a gun ready in hand,

My head bows, knowing what will happen,

I am trying to control my fear as I hear the gun cock back.

I do not fear death, for I am free,

I fear for you.

You ask me what my last words are before I go,

I have said my words, so many times,

I will just be repeating myself.

I have only one word

Both from me and Him:

“I love you.”

Fare thee well, I am going home.

The Cry of the Desperate and Hungry Heart

 Father, at times my own mind turns against my very soul,
It has become my bitter enemy for it seeks to destroy me.
Please, spare me... have mercy on my hungry soul,
Oh, how I hunger for Your righteousness
....how I long to stand in your courts,
completely clothed in Your Mercy and Love.

I have tried everything to wash away my guilt,
my heart cried every time I tried to do a good deed,
for in deep crevaces of my soul, I knew it could not erase.
Nothing I did could take away what I have done,
nothing I said could save me from myself...
O, my strength is spent...I have wandered the earth for rest,
and finding none....

I keep hearing Your whispers....like water running overthe  rocks in a brook...
sweetly calling me, like the gentle breeze in the coolness of the forest.
I turn and face You and I cannot stop the tears,
There is nothing I can do to earn Your grace,
I have nothing to offer...
....just a desperate and a hungry heart.
Small and battered it is, there is nothing in it that reflects beauty,
It has been through many pains and hurts,
is there any worth in this battered soul that You can hold dear?

I feel Your Hands close around my heart, caressing its scars,
"I love you for who you are. Receive me, for I AM your Redemption,
you do not have to wander the earth alone,
I can heal you from your guilt, save you from certain death,
I know your pain....and I want you...because of you...
...nothing more.
You do not have to earn My Love,
I already have given it to You,
when I died so that you may live and be healed...
...all you have to do is recieve me.
All You have to do is follow me,
let me teach you, let me heal you."

You are the Bread of Life for my hungry heart
...the Water of the Eternal for my thirsty soul...living, breathing Water.
Truth flows in and through You, for You are Truth.

Keep my Heart...for it is now Yours forever,
I shall walk in Your footsteps,
seeking Your direction all the days of my life.

You are my Inheritance, my Love.
You are the Epic Music of Ages, the sounding harp strings of my heart,
my second heartbeat, within this new heart that You have given me,
completely healed, completely Yours alone, and never alone.

I shall forever be lost in Your Love, found in Your grace....
....always...